This is a voluminous piece
Made from dense material
Staged in an opulent setting
A motif of multiplicities unfold
Entering and dispersing
Braiding together and unfurling
Mirroring the making of mimicry as metaphors
The topical lament is thrown off balance and into the mix
Reflected from a personal place
Performed in a public setting
My voice is a transparent volume
Hoping for good reception
Knowing the difficulties in hearing
Hefty hammering haggling for attentiveness
In a fluttering social scene
Sounding sometimes like private noise
Spoken by the dominant tongue
But attempting to manoeuvre with resonant meaning
Resisting to enter the echo chamber
And as a long braid contours the landscape
Into which some form of sonata unfolds
Brimming with allegories but acutely personal
Sounding sometimes dissonant and diskanted
Notes are combined with movements
A sentiment abstracted but absolutely ordinarily honest
Written from an entirely un-exclusive setting
This prelude remains unrevised
Jotted down just last night as our daughter
Cries for sleep and I think mostly of her but partly of introducing
Of what this work is speaking
Of fatigue
And of joy
Of tragedy and its comedy
Of bodies which intertwine, which repel and repress
Of paradoxical laments
Of withdrawal and togetherness
Which even in these in-between moments
compel me to write
As a persona; A sonata.
There are materials which turn the body into an object
Reducing it to a mere reflection of the social
Leaving behind nothing but the artefakt of presence
Dialectically living as a kind of double image displayed
Acting as voyeurs but producing performance
A mirrored surface creates a wall
An unintentional side effect of self-contact
The reflection negates itself and fails as figure, falling flaccid.
When the value of life becomes economically described
The societal structure is inherently bankrupt
A nest of negligence. The profane acting as sacred.
And it causes the audacity of claiming calamity
Lamenting the tragedy of departure from expected social ideals
From melancholic material matter which seems to matter more than most
Vocalising this material loss, localising this material loss, which in contrast to the dispersed body,
the perversed body, the entirely overtaken body, seems so little but manifests so big and loud and strong.
Simmering in a welcome stand-still of embrace of non-transactional care and contact
Lingering in the lavish luxury of liaisons
Done with demonstrating one’s value through pure performativity of presence.
Sans touch but entirely mingled, oscillating back and forth on a progressive wave
A volume which both grows and lessens – the oxymoronic swell of a surf
The dialectical lamentation needs a new vernacular
The delicate self speaks of the cultural capital in jeopardy.
Echoing their access to the upper echelons in the established order.
In this scene in which we see ourselves set as a still life – A mis-en-place, placed in plentitude.
In utter abundance and opulence in a crisis of sparse co-existence.
Where some have none but a multiplicity of doubt and dread
and dream of collective care and collaborative cures
But receive a bound-to-bounce check in the defunkt economy of exclusivity
And whilst beings become numbers and data which abstract bodies
and these intense powers of abstraction reduce even a magnitude to nothing
The many-faced self-recognition becomes a blurry vision.
A frame which freezes then speeds up per automation, mingled beyond recognition.
This is an extension of my present condition
The motif of disembodiment
The dispersal body
In parts, then not
Interprets actual lifelessness
Exodus of consciousness
Memory of movement
Where language and sound are entirely the same
And soon the recitation which seems too thick and saucy gradually transforms into a sound from slid round glasses
These are odes to the slow cancellation of the future
In which inconsistent monuments are constructed by new rituals
An elegy to futility and the myth of progressive modernity
This is a chance to recoup
Where music and movement escalate again into a percussive staccato dialogue
Which begins to dismantle
There are echoes in this contact
Though no body is speaking as no body is only ever speaking
No one body only ever moving and
No still image only ever of real bodies
They tie and link and wrap and tangle into
Bodies which organise themselves
Reveal themselves through volume
Setting out to locate the I in the following
The I in the masses
A body of bodies makes more tissue, harder holding
Weightily woven, wearing well
A close-knit platted braid, curling bodies coil around the projected self
A solo centres their swimming displacement
At the one hand I am braiding my hair, at the other my hair is braided.
At the one hand i am elongating my limbs, at the other holding the hand
that at the one hand is braiding my hair, at the other i am platted –
a single length made up of interlaced strands move into the shape of a coil.
Isolate if you can the singular body in this link
It is no longer
In this vaguely fluid mixture
A hand lost in the body
Bathed in braids
This absolutely unoriginal meditation
In which the suspended body becomes alert
And when an arm slides through she is still inside
It is a tiny distance but a huge measurement
To exit the I as a whole
The I is decided
The I is shattered
The I is unwaveringly for another
I finally understand the meaning of the voice
It shouts at the point where the I is coming undone
Weary and spent
Out of breath and fatigued
Entirely without reason
This realisation of absurd pointlessness is a point of becoming
In its undoing I exist as we
There is no name for the we
Because we are not two singles coupled
This is not that which will tear
But has torn into the becoming through the impermeable
Launched into the breathable space
On the movement of waves
After gesticulating within the confines of walls
I touch my shoulder with my hand
Putting my elbows on my knees
Placing one part of my body on your body
Your body is another’s
These are combinations
Which give rise to a state of absolute contact
These are meditations on combinations
An aria to accompany the coterie
Recasting ruins as entirely new models
With zero singularity
An entirely moulded
So moved, so stable
A tightly knitted agency